Daddy Apprehension

Apprehension – what a great word. It means dread – a feeling of anxiety or fear; ability to understand – the power or ability to grasp the importance, significance, or meaning of something; idea – an idea formed by observation or experience; and arrest – the taking of a suspect into custody.

I don’t know what mommy sees in daddy right now, but mommy should be seeing all four meanings but not necessarily in that order.

Daddy Apprehension – Daddy’s ability to understand and grasp the importance of what is about to happen is driving his life and actually changing his thought patterns. What is most important is about to change and priorities are being shifted. Daddy’s job must be organized so he can come and stay at the hospital without any worries. The house must be safe and secure but not too secure. Mommy doesn’t need to mess with childproof locks while she’s still pregnant in fact Daddy doesn’t need to install until you start being mobile. Daddy and mommy are becoming church members to grow the family, to give you extra ‘aunts’ and ‘uncles’ and even the dog guardians are getting extra fencing until they know how to protect you properly.

Daddy Apprehension – Daddy’s ideas and Mommy’s too. So many questions that need answers and ideas, where do we put you, how to decorate the rooms, where can I find help, what if something goes wrong? Every one of the questions is being asked and for everyone I have an answer or idea of who to ask or where to go.

Daddy Apprehension – Daddy’s dread or anxiety and fear is all about two things; is Mommy okay and will I let you down? Mommy is making strange noises and getting up at night, you are pushing on her tummy, lungs, and bladder, she needs to burp, pee, get up and walk around to breath. I am always asking mommy if she is okay and she is being brave and strong. On the fear part, daddy doesn’t fear two years from now or even 18 years but daddy is anxious about the days after you are born. For up until three years ago it was only his life he had to watch over, then mommy came along and things changed all of that, choices were different. But now all those choices and answers are going to change again. By the time you are two and walking and answering “no” to everything I might have you figured out a little but making sure you make it to two safely is a little nerve-wracking.

Daddy Apprehension – Daddy’s arrest or I will say surrender. Daddy is not being taken into custody, but daddy is surrendering into it. Daddy is taking two girls into custody but will be surrendering into your needs and arrest will become no-rest.